Decision unmade...

Its seemingly quite mixed sort of thoughts I get when I take time out of my free schedule to look back, from where I started almost a year back.

It was around this time only, 10+2 results were out and without any amazement to anyone I managed to make it "an average" show. Post results the time I had was really significant in moulding my life which would follow my decisions taken then. Thereafter followed some entrance examinations, out of which I managed to get into half of them, surprisingly for myself, as for others!

Now one of the most bizarre incidents ever happened with me is that despite being eligible for one of the best institutes, I settled with the second option I had. Befuddled with my decision, I was often asked why did I not take the best option I had? I was always of the thought that how do i justify it rather should I justify?

The reasons or to be more precise the intentions were clear, 'What's best for all, could not necessarily be the best for me.'

It has become a real tough scene for people deciding over important issues. Issues that are life moulding. Having encountered a few, I, at no point wanted to regret what I decide. How would I tackle any reprehensible thought? It's more important to know what I want form myself. When I look at myself inside and out, I know what I want from myself. Name, fame, authority? I guess ,not! One thing was sure I never wanted the general best. Not being maverick but self.

So, the decision is yet to be taken, not in pursuit of happiness but satisfaction!